now botak.

yesterday, i took half day's leave and brought furball for her grooming appointment at vivocity. since the time she had her heat and i made her wear diapers, she has had quite some matt on her fur and the only way to get rid of 'em was to shave because it would be really painful for her to dematt.

so now, she's shaved.

to the minimal.



okay, la, she isn't really botak.

as we stood outside watching through the glass that separated us, a sudden pang of awfulness hit me. it dawned on me that i haven't been taking very good care of the girl. had i realised the diapers were gon' matt her fur, i wouldn't have made her wear 'em. had i spent more time trying to deal with the matt, she wouldn't have had to be shaved down. and then i cried, knowing i haven't been a good mother.

she is so thin, it must have been 'cause i haven't been feeding her well.

i...

don't know, she didn't used to have matt, or even when she had, it wouldn't take me more than five minutes to dematt them. i just feel like i've been neglecting her quite a lot, partly due to work. the other part is most probably due to my laziness.

i'm sorry, girl because i've been breaking my promises.

i'd watch you for every second that i can, just to make sure you're fine. and i'd care for you like you cared for me.

thank you for everything that you've done for me.

i love you.

it still feels like yesterday when i first brought you home. it was may 24th's late in the night and i could read the sore in michelle's eyes even though you've only been with her for barely two weeks. she must have loved you at lot, but you naughty rascal had to constantly bully your big sister. then again, i guess it's destiny for you to come into my life.

and i thank you for that 'cause you've made many lives different.

it has been nearly six months and i have been watching you grow every single day. from the day i taught you to shake hands, to sit, to high five, to lie down, to roll over and to play bang. i remember every single detail.

and now you've already started menstruating, it's yet another chapter.

mummy apologises for the times when i couldn't bring you out for a walk.
mummy apologises for the times when i hit you too hard.
mummy apologises for the times when i couldn't be bothered to play with you.
mummy apologises for the times when you'd wait eagerly on my bed for me to come home, only to realise i'd be home only in the morning.
mummy apologises for the times when... i don't know, when i think i don't love you enough?

but my dear baby, mummy loves you. so does daddy.

and everyone else.

some one or two thursdays back.

 

look out for a super cute schnauzer puppy running across!


don't you dare laugh at me!

gigi learnt how to roll over and play bang in an hour! she's almost there for bang! (:

you're here at mynameisgigi because i'm taking a bit more effort to record the details of my furkid. i tell you, it is totally crazy but i am still gon' do it. she brought so much joy to me and the people around me, the least i could do is to remember them. (;



but anyways, welcome to mynameisgigi.blogspot.com!

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